IF I COULD SHOOT A GAME BIRD and still not hurt it , the way I can take a trout on a fly and release it , I doubt if I would kill another one. This is a strange statement coming from a man whose life is dedicated to shooting and gun dogs. For me , there is almost no moment more sublime than when I pull the trigger and see a capercaille or a ptarmigan fall. Yet , as the bird is retrieved I feel a sense of remorse for taking a courageous life.
About the time I passed fifty I noticed this conflict becoming more pronounced.